You need to stop this now. You are wallowing. You are allowing negativity to control you, and frankly, it is not like you, Maria! Yes, you should go with him on the trip. When we promised to love our husbands, and they promised to love us forever, and to stand together for better or worse, we didn't know what we were saying. It was a promise, but it was meaningless because we had never been through the bad stuff, we didn't know how hard it could be. Now, after the affair, now we know. When we promise now, it means much more. The promise from him means more with the knowledge of the mistakes than it could ever mean without that knowledge. Yes, forgiveness is hard. That is your problem, you won't, or you think you can't, forgive. But you have to. There is no choice, you can't get on with your life unless you do.
Maria, you are doing such a good job having heart to heart conversations with him. It is time that you believed him.
