Please help - feeling so desperate - need advice

[fudwoman]

Hi PEI,
I read through your whole sitch finally today. Wow - you have been through the ringer - amazing the way these stories have their twists and turns. I'm doing OK - had a not great morning where my feelings got hurt because H asked me a question then got called out of the room by D4 and then never returned. I asked him why he never came back and he said - sorry just got distracted. Before I left for work I said sorry I didn't sleep well last night (true) and am feeling sensitive - that of course I knew that he didn't intentionally walk out on our conversation.

The good things about today though - I called a good friend of mine (M - my ex boss) and he was very supportive. He's on his third marriage. I really value his opinion and he didn't judge me at all. He said - 'you like to solve things - and solve them NOW' but that just isn't going to happen in this case. He offered to be there for me and that made me really happy. I feel very alone in this with few people to talk to besides my IC. I have told exactly 4 friends and 3 of them have basically been unavailable for various reasons lately and so that really makes me feel out there on my own. I need help with perspective A LOT - which is a big part of the reason I have started coming here.

Also today I connected with Dr. Stosny's asst. to find out more information about the upcoming boot camp in July which I intend to attend. I wanted to make sure it would still be valuable even if my H did not attend. I have not invited him to come and frankly don't really want him there. I'm not looking at the bootcamp as an opportunity to work on the marriage but an opportunity to work on me and my anger issues. We'll see.

That's it for now.