I'm sorry, but it sounds kind of like you're feeling sorry for yourself now.

We ALL knew when we chose to fight for our M's that it would be hard. Some days I HATE my life too, but I chose to stay & that's what I'm doing.

From the outside looking it, it just sounds like you are helping yourself to be miserable. I totally understand the hurt you are feeling. My H has cheated on me at LEAST FOUR times, but I chose to stay & that's what I'm doing.

Do you realize how many people over in Newcomers who would ABSOLUTELY KILL to be in your position & you are willing to throw it away now??!!

I apologize if I'm way out of line here, but it just looks to me like you have a husband who loves you deeply and is willing to do just about ANYTHING right now to make your M work & you're WANTING to just THROW IT AWAY.

Me: 38
H: 35
S4, S5, S10
Bomb 01/07
Wanted D - nothing would change his mind
Numerous A's prior to D bomb; EA prior/during D bomb
Piecing 04/07
Deployed for a year 05/07
Still Piecing 2010
M 11 yrs 05/10