I have had a productive day.I have to find a job to be able to support my girls and which will hopefully distract me from this mess.I am slowly but surely convincing myself that if I get back to work, it may trigger a reactin from H but he doesnt know whats going on and probably doesnt care.
I have to accept that maybe the case.

ME 44
H 45
D 14
D 20
M 22 YEARS
TOGETHER 28YEARS
Bomb Drop 14th July 09
Seperated-living with OW 10mths(14/07/09)
MLC 3years

Silence wasn't golden in this marriage; it was deadly," Dr. Robin L. Smith