Brief exchange with the she yesterday. She snapped out about something for no apparent reason and made me feel bad for a few minutes. Par for her course. It was just a reminder.
I don't miss her (I'm repulsed).
I don't miss being married.
I don't miss domestic life.
I put up with this for too long.
I am free to be me.
I am blossoming inside.
I will be who I am.
I am discovering my own light and the light in others.
I am writing my own book.
Live. Learn. Love.
Dog.
"My actions are my only true belongings. I cannot escape the consequences of my actions. My actions are the ground upon which I stand." Thich Nhat Hanh
I am discovering my own light and the light in others.
I am writing my own book.
Cheers Dog!
M22,H45,W45 S21/18D12 Retain faith that you will prevail in the end, regardless of the difficulties and at the same time confront the most brutal facts of your current reality, whatever they might be.
I can't believe how far I've come around. I hate to say this (and maybe I'll be banned) but it seems for me D was a good thing. Even d said out of the blue yesterday that she "likes things better" the way they are now. Something was wrong for a long time. Kinda like this:
Was she? Who knows but this blurb sure describes how it was. My only thing now is that I feel like a f'in tool for remaining in this for so long. Div should have happened a long time ago. And maybe it should have started with me.
"My actions are my only true belongings. I cannot escape the consequences of my actions. My actions are the ground upon which I stand." Thich Nhat Hanh
My only thing now is that I feel like a f'in tool for remaining in this for so long. Div should have happened a long time ago. And maybe it should have started with me.
Cut yourself some slack, will ya? Regret and worry are twin thieves that rob us of today. Go back and read your 4/22 post. You are blessed. Today. Now. That's all that matters.
Gardener
"My soul, be satisfied with flowers, With fruit, with weeds even; but gather them In the one garden you may call your own." Cyrano deBergerac
Hey Dog. You sound strong. Quit thinking about it. Keep getting stronger and better, and just focus on O'dog. I'll be real glad when I get to the mentally strong place that you're at now.
"Always go straight forward, and if you meet the devil, cut him in two and go between the pieces." - William Sturgis, clipper ship captain, 1830's.
"My actions are my only true belongings. I cannot escape the consequences of my actions. My actions are the ground upon which I stand." Thich Nhat Hanh
One of the things I've realized more and more is that I got absolutely nothing out of my M beginning in January 2007.
No emotional support. No affection. No concern. No help.
Yet I stayed in there and kept pitching.
So when it ends I'll be sad and most likely shed a tear or two. But it will be nice some day to feel like someone is interested in me again. STBXW wasn't for at least four years.
So I hear you O'Dog.
Unfortunately, today was my Divorce Parenting class and it pointed out how kids are damaged by divorce even when things go smoothly. That made me sad and mad again.
Me: 47, Ds 17-13, D final 6-11 http://tinyurl.com/yk4e2tz http://tiny.cc/thread2 http://tinyurl.com/ydtphqu http://tinyurl.com/thread4 http://tinyurl.com/3sm78k6 http://tinyurl.com/thread6
"My actions are my only true belongings. I cannot escape the consequences of my actions. My actions are the ground upon which I stand." Thich Nhat Hanh