We've been through this before TH. He is a wayward.. goes back and forth. He needs space, I give it; focus on myself; GAL; be get strong, then he comes back wanting to R. Wait a little while and then if I bring something up to him (nag or b!tch as he puts it), he starts in with the whole "I'm done" BS. it's like he has temper tantrums.
I definitely messed this up. I won't lie about that. I kept backsliding and getting comfortable in the fact that he was back.. rather than continuing as I should have..
You don't have to look at this like you messed up. Each of these times were what you needed to keep learning about what is working and what isn't. In other words they where opportunities.
After reading/scanning through your thread the other day, I think you are being too hard on yourself. But, I agree with PG that it's good for you to let this out, cry and vent. Just remember you are not stupid, and treat yourself good!
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