The journey begins

[ClingingToHope]

FIB, I shake my head when I read you situation. It's a quandary. In many respects I'm LUCKY. I mean STBXW is rapidly careening toward bankruptcy yet she's not coming after me for every dime she'd get in court.

I think she genuinely feels guilty.

Because of her job she NEEDS me to be flexible so I have that going for me.

But still it is hard to feel lucky when this all feels so unnecessary. I'm looking at our past with a much clearer head. She's been troubled from the minute we started dating and she was an increasingly lousy wife. Still, there was a lot more we could have done to fix things.

So it's tough. I feel fortunate when I read the really bad cases, but I'm still sad because I think about what could have been.

Journaling: Picked up the girls. STBXW carried D7 out and I took her from STBXW turned without looking at her and walked to the car. She called from behind "12:15 to 12:30," which in STBXW's world is 1 p.m. or later.

If she pulls that again I'm going to have to say something. My time is valuable too.

D7 is watching TV and we may go for a walk because it is a beautiful day.

Added up my spending for past two weeks. With two days to go I have $27 left to stay under budget. I have something tonight which is going to cost $10 or so. I have to get a haircut for $10 and I'll have to get a little more gas. It's going to be close.