You are way to sure of what your H is thinking/feeling/believing right now. You don't know. Let it go. It's wasted energy. You need to manage your energy now.
Put the focus back on yourself. List your goals and how to achieve them then take action. Monitor the results, adjust and move forward. Is what you are doing working? You will be less confused when you have a plan. The plan changes your thinking which will change how you feel.
What is your educational and professional background? What are your strengths? Why did your H fall in love with you?
M22,H45,W45 S21/18D12 Retain faith that you will prevail in the end, regardless of the difficulties and at the same time confront the most brutal facts of your current reality, whatever they might be.
