Wifey gone wild?

[The Wifey]

I just returned from a vacation in Key West. I let my hair down and more while I was there. I had men telling me I was smoking hot and wanting to dance with me. And I did dance. Every single night my girlfriend and I closed out Sloppy Joe's dancing our butts off. How many people lose 5 pounds on vacation?

Don't worry, I was DD every night. I had 2-3 drinks and then switched to diet soda the rest of the night. (I have way more fun knowing I will get home safe & so will my friends.)

When I came home reality slapped me in the face. Not much has changed with my H. Last night was a melt down. H loves me but says our collective experiences have made us 2 independent people and I should focus on what we have rather than what we don't.

Also said it is day by day and he doesn't know how long it will take for him to feel any different - if ever.

Sure. I should focus on what we have. But I also want someone to light up when I walk in the room. I want someone to put their arms around me and pull me close. I want to be made love to. I want someone to say they miss me when I am not there. (H did not.)

H is drinking nearly every night. I think he does it to feel numb. And when I am around him I am taking a pill for anxiety. I just don't think this is healthy for me. I lost a lot of hope last night.