Chapter 28 - Emergencies and winnings

[Toomanywords]

Well right or wrong I had to drop something off at his parent's. Only his dad was home. He asked how things were and I told him that I probably won't see him much anymore because bf made a decision Sunday morning that was the final straw. I told him very very briefly about how things went down. He said that bf needs to grow up - plain and simple.

Last night the tears and pain started. I was watching TV, he came home. Started watching a show on DVR. He got a call from that lying piece of crap and paused the TV, was out on the porch talking. Told the person on the phone he'd be out by august.
When he came in I said something about that, he said I was eavesdropping - I told him, he paused the TV and I was waiting for him and he was right out on the porch talking.
I also made a comment to him about him being able to talk to someone but according to him I'm not supposed to talk to anyone about anything. Not sure if his dad called him or something or if he was making a general reference of me talking to my mom but he said "at least I don't call your mom...". I didn't bother to follow up.
I went upstairs, went in the bedroom around 7:30. He came up to ask if I was hungry, then to say he was leaving and he'd be back. I watched TV.
Not sure when he came back, he slept on the couch.

While he was out, my dad sent me a text letting me know before I read it on facebook that he went to the dr and he has skin cancer.
To "cheer" him up I told him about bf. He said it doesn't make him happy that I'm upset and disappointed.

I probably would have stayed home from work today cause my ulcer/acid reflux is kicked up- I have the time off, ...however I have class today, tomorrow and Thursday.



I don't know if it's like a drug. There has been so much time, effort, energy, emotion put into this relationship that it is disappointing for it to end - in any way.
But I have nothing left to give. There is absolutely nothing else that I can do, alone, to make this work. And you are 100% right - if he loved me and wanted to me with me, he'd make the effort and show it.

We'll see what the future holds I guess.

Thanks