online affair about to become physical

[david allen]

been a couple of weeks need to report in. she went to boston spent 4 days with the other man. now he is planning another trip for her but she is not sounding to possitive about going again. she is really feeling the pinch of not having the income she is accustomed to having,she is saying having a long range relationship is not worth having. she aeems to be wanting to spend time with me she wasnt willing to spend before, but i am meeting other women I havent made anything phyisical with anyone but i have made it knowne that i am seeing people. the other man is paying for another ticket to boston this weekend but she is bocking on taking him up on the offer I assume she is going to go. Im not letting on how I feel but Im not sure what my next move should be. Im sure she had sex with this smuck when she went the last time, and im not sure if i could forgive her and take her back but when she comes around a truly miss her! I dont think I have ever been more confused in my life. I would think any normal person would tell her to f___k off but when I see her all logic goes out the door. I have a date with a really nice lady tomorrow night nothing serious but every woman I meet I feel like im using them to get my wife back. I havent done anything against my wedding vows the guilt just eats me up can anyone provide some advice as to how to procede