Thank you Jack and Shelbel. This is exactly what I needed to clarify. At this point I can do it but I certainly don't mean it when I say "have fun". And the depression/resentment afterwards is difficult...but now at least I know for sure it's the right thing.
Jack refers to something else I'm wondering about...do I ever get to confront? Do I ever get to go back and say "It didn't make sense when you said you were going to such and such to watch the game. Was that true?". If/after the MLCer comes out of this do you just have to forget it all as if it never happened?
THANK YOU SO MUCH!
M--14 years T--20 years, HS sweethearts dday #1--2002 EA dday #2--2005 bar sl*t dday #3/4--Feb 2010 texting/cell/physical/who knows what Shortly after found out he had been injecting steroids for 2 years