mostly I'm reading manuals and trying to absorb what seems like a million unrelated facts. no one expects me to be up to speed for 6-8 months--and that's probably pretty accurate. big learning curve here.
and found out today that our Principal Investigator--the physician overseeing the studies--is leaving in 10 weeks!! I have no idea of the implications of all this; unlikely that we'll all be shifted around, at least not in the next year, but there's no obvious replacement for him, and no one is sure if they'll re-hire his position, or when. nice guy, easy to work with--I hate to see him go. but beyond that, no idea what this will all entail.
Texas professor hottie is coming to visit in a week or so. I vascillate between excitement and abject panic! turns out he won't be here for D14's graduation after all, so that whole quandary is moot.
and tomorrow is the 2nd anniversary of the bomb. how far I've come since then. thinking back, it's a sick feeling, almost makes me nauseated remembering how it felt, how terrifying it all was. but I am much more whole and solid now than I ever was with xH; sometimes lonely, but not for him, just lonely.
M60 H52 D20 M14 yrs OW-old gf from 1986 bomb-5/18/08 H filed for D-9/10/08 D final 4/24/09 xH remarried (not OW) 2012
