I am still having a hard time letting go and detaching more... I will just list the questions that keep going through my mind (over and over the last few days)... (Maybe it will help to get it out, even if no one has an answer......IDK. ::sigh::)
Why is he so mean to me when I am so nice to him? Why can't he just be nice and understanding that I am hurting so bad?
Why does he act like he can't trust me, like I am his #1 enemy?
It's as if he is continually trying to punish me. Why?
He says that he hates my guts and doesn't see us ever getting back together. He likes the peace of not having a nagging, controlling, (blah blah blah) wife. He says all we did was argue and fight and that we're just not compatible. Has anyone had a MLC H say that they didn't ever want to get back together, but then have a change of heart after a period of time? What caused the change of heart?
He is continually pursuing other women, sweet-talking many, "in love" with the 19 YO. Since I'm out of the house and having NC with him, isn't that making it easier for these women to move into his heart and he forget about me and the love/life we shared? ("Out of sight, out of mind"...?)
What are some DB'ing techniques I should be doing right now besides NC? I don't know how to act around him when I do have to have contact. (It is so weird to me to be standing right in front of my husband and not know what to say or do. ::sigh::)
Will he ever see me as someone important, worth respect and appreciation again, or will he always see me as someone to run from and hate?
How do I get my kids and me through all this???
Last edited by RLay1100; 05/18/1012:02 AM.
M: 34 WAH: 38 (in MLC) Together: 11 years Married since: November 2000 DS: 15 DS: 11 DS: 10 ILYBINILWY: Dec. 2009 Living separately since: April 2010
