Wow AC. Good for you for asserting all your feelings thoughts and needs in this important meeting. It sounds like you feel you said everything you needed to say - that's so great. I'm really happy you were able to get through it with such integrity and self awareness.

And regarding not being sure you have hope, you never know. Like so many of the folks in this community have found out and just as you've done here, sometimes we have to let go of things before they'll come back to us. Hugs. PG.

I cannot complain for not receiving from others, that which I've never asked them for.