The Court of King Caractacus

[lees]

Hey pearl, nice to see you here again. Hope your days away were enjoyable.

I don't know how to say this without possibly hurting you, but you need to be prepared for the possibility that W's A with OW might not end.

I know, I'm not hurt by it, what happens will happen and I will eventually be back in happyland for good rather than the intermittent, but gradually increasing vacations I spend there currently. But for now I am still hoping. I think about that every day. It's usually swiftly followed by remembering just how much hard work would be involved even if it did end and she came crawling back, and wondering if I could actually do it anyway. The further down the road I travel, the less sure I am that there is a path which leads to marriage Mk2.

The odds are so very stacked against them though, both with such histories of cheating, deception and inability to maintain long term commitment are hardly a recipe for happily married life. And then pile on the total opposition of their hobbies, likes and dislikes, life plans, and the disgust of WAW's family. OW is a totally selfish workaholic, incapable of putting anyone else before herself. It is in fact her third marriage/engagement wrecking enterprise and I'm not sure that counts in terms of third time lucky. Not a good long term trait either. So I'm playing the statistics game with this one. Odds on they fail. Not a given, but highly likely.

And you're welcome at my cottage anytime. Check it out on the alt. I'm gonna be up there first week of June. Highland Games are so much fun. Even the local ones are a grand day out.

I'm in limbo yes. A limbo today of very much I would like my WAW back, but I definitely don't need her back. I'm sure the right woman saying the right things could very easily make me forget it all and I could be the WAW. But I'm avoiding that. Need more time to heal myself before inflicting on someone else.