Hugs Lost...you're on the rollercoaster I see.

I haven't followed your sitch, but I read a wonderful book that I think might be helpful for you:

http://www.amazon.com/This-Not-Story-You-Think/dp/0399156658

me: 42 | STBXH: 41 | T: 18 | M: 10 | separation: Jan 3, 2010 | they deserve better: S7 & D4
current thread: http://tinyurl.com/3y8sxcp
.: first breathe, then heal, then start LIVING :.