Had a good weekend with the kids. Whenever she gets home, I make sure I have something to do or somewhere to go. Sat. afternoon was her nephews b'day party. I didn't ask if I was invited or not, she didn't tell me there even was a party. When she said what was going on, I just said I was going here and then there. She asked if I was coming home that night. I just looked at her. She said she was just asking because she had to be at work at 4:00am. I said that I knew that, see you later. Sun. after church and lunch, she got home and said her niece had a dance recital that she a D6 were going to. I told the boys to get ready and we had a boys day out. The four of us went to a movie, went to eat, to a park and then came home and played video games and watched movies as loud and as long as we wanted. They got home at 10:00pm and D6 said she wished I had came along. "It was fun having a girl's day, but I missed you, Dad." She said it in front of W and then said she wanted to sleep with me since mom and dad didn't sleep together much anymore. W said sure you can sleep with dad, and went and slept on the couch.
So, things haven't really changed at all. She still thinks breaking up would be best for the kids when we all know better.
I find myself not really sad at all anymore. I don't know who this woman is. I still hope we can save our M, but I have let her go. I don't love who she has become and I won't miss her when she goes. Detachment is complete. I understand it now. Still have to have patience, but not worried about the outcome anymore. If anything, I wish she would hurry up and go. Does that make sense?
