....still just bobing through each day not knowing how to move forward....my W keeps telling me to just be happy that she is with me...i guess it makes me feel like she is settling or somethign like that.
i really do love her, she asks and i tell here so. She asks if i want to D her, i tell her "no". she asks/tells me i hate her don't i? i tell her i don't hate her, just the decision she made.
i just am not sure if i will ever be able to get past the fact she betrayed our M and allowed another man to be inside her...sounds dumb i know...i want to have a R where i don't have this sitting on my back each and every day.
with her or without her, i am still going to have this crap with me for the rest of my life.
guess i need to "embrace the suck" till who knows when, huh.
Gman
Damn Gman,
I thought you out of all of us was past this. They're saying this stuff can send you to an early grave, so if it "sucks" too bad its gotta go.
Many of the men have wives who do not cooperate as well as your wife, so you as much as you are sucking today are in a position several times better than mine and others.
