....still just bobing through each day not knowing how to move forward....my W keeps telling me to just be happy that she is with me...i guess it makes me feel like she is settling or somethign like that.

i really do love her, she asks and i tell here so. She asks if i want to D her, i tell her "no". she asks/tells me i hate her don't i? i tell her i don't hate her, just the decision she made.

i just am not sure if i will ever be able to get past the fact she betrayed our M and allowed another man to be inside her...sounds dumb i know...i want to have a R where i don't have this sitting on my back each and every day.

with her or without her, i am still going to have this crap with me for the rest of my life.

guess i need to "embrace the suck" till who knows when, huh.

Gman

M-37 W-36
S-11, S-9, D-4
PA exposed 3/13/10
10/19/10 moving on...
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