WH - he destroyed my marriage, he walked away from my life, even if he came back it's irretrievably broken, he forced my children to live in broken home, he left the day I had just gotten the job I'd worked my whole life for and I had to go to my boss and tell him I couldn't function, my kids lost their friends, I can't see my future, I don't know if it will be better or worse but IT doesn't exist right now, he treated me worse then you would treat your enemies, how am I ever supposed to heal from this?