I'm hoping that his moving to the rent house will be a positive for my marriage. Maybe he'll get lonely out there in the boonies and start to miss me, miss us. Maybe his cousin who lives near and just reconciled with his wife will somehow influence him to work things out.
I see no positives. Everyday seems the same: wake up, take care of kids and other responsibilities, get dressed to maybe get a call for an interview (which hasn't happened in 2 months), pray a bunch, leave him alone about us, and go to bed at night hoping something good will happen the next day. How am I to keep doing this? Nothing is working. How do I keep it up with no encouraging signs?
I've tried not speaking at all, I've tried acting like I don't care, I've tried inviting him over to hang out as friends, I've tried expressing my desire for him, and now I don't know what to do. I want my H so badly. He doesn't care about anyone except himself. He refuses to bring my kids to church when they're with him. I think that's because he might feel guilty and he might view it as a type of counseling that he repeatedly refuses no matter who brings it up. His cousin told me that he doesn't think he'll come back.
I need to know how to get him back or how to find a switch to flip so that I will start not caring and can move on. Who am I kidding? I couldn't flip that switch if I found it. I need money to call a coach.
