I just don't understand why this happened. I miss my old life, and I miss my old H, and I miss our family all being together. We were so good, and he just blew it all up, and won't stop. And his mother keeps encouraging him to stay away from me. Now she's blaming me for not having the grandkids over, even though I invited her here to see where we live and she wouldn't come. They could go to her place every other weekend otherwise, when he could take them (his weekends), but he doesn't, blames it on me, why is my fault? His friends more and more are all walk-away divorced Dads and single people. WHY?
He doesn't see me be sad, at least not much. Neither does anyone else. I come here and you can read what I'm feeling, but no one else does, it's all bottled up. I'm a serious professional, and a great Mom, and a good friend, and that's all pretty much anyone ever sees. There's maybe a half dozen or so people that have or would ask me on dates, but I don't want to go, and I'm really not interested. I just want my life back.
I don't want to progress any further. I could do it just fine, but I don't want to. I want my children to have their family back, and there is nothing I can do to give them that.
I do answer your questions, and I don't like the answers, but I do understand that they are so.
I should just go work out or something, I just woke up so sad today.
Thanks, Cat04, I'll be ok, I really appreciate your writing.
