If You Forget Me #71

[saffie]

But what eats me up inside is the past. The facts. It IS the fact that he chose her over me repeatedly, he found something to her that I was missing and probably still am.

I don't believe that. Circumstances just happened that made it easier for him AT THAT TIME to fall under the spell of another woman, ( if it hadn't beeen HER it would probably have been some other 'special person'). He needed to self soothe and bolster his self esteem. Now he seems much more self aware and much more focused on what matters.

You are like me - you are getting too hung up on the past. Yes, you need to learn from it .....but you mustn't let it destroy the chance you have now of making it work, and making it work better than before.

I grieve the lost exclusivety very much - my H and I weren't virgins when we met either, but so what. We made a promise to one another and he broke it.

Renewing our vows did help.

((((((hugs)))))))