still separated, headed for D?

[newmama]

Gatsby, just was wondering what you thought sounded good about WH's drop off with S? The way I responded? The fact that he wanted to text me?

CW- yes the anger is "unpleasant" and I don't find it useful other than to help me detach. Glad to hear it will go away! And that you go through it too!

Flowmom-I did check out the website for From Abandonment to Healing (I think that's the title) and recognized some of the stages you metnioned. Were they from there?

Whatnow- I haven't forgotten my plan believe it or not!I have been forcing my mind to go back to it when I start to try and prepare myself for the worst. I mean there has to be a way to keep thinking positive while acknowledging the feelings of anger and sadness....right?

I was thinking to the time when I took a risk, resigned before finding my next job, and applied for 25 teaching positions. I went on 10-12 interviews. 99% time during this job hunt, I had faith that I would get something I really wanted. Only for a short while I would think things like "what do I do if I don't get a job? what if this is a horrible time for looking? what if I just don't have the experience?" .But I KNEW I would be successful. Sure enough, the 11th and 12th interviews I was offered the job- so 2 different schools wanted me!

My point? I did not let myself worry about failing. I have done this kind of thinking for every goal I have set...and have achieved them so far!Oh- I should point out that I didn't achieve my goals overnight but I always held them in my heart. So I need to remember that.

Thanks so much ladies. I do feel better...maybe I shouldn't be "allowed" to post when I am feeling too low or too angry!