Just found out she already filed

[ImprovedRomeo]

FM, Alice and CTH, thank you so much for taking the time to relate, advise and encourage me to GAL. It means a lot to me and I really appreciate it.

This weekend went well, just really busy and tiring for me. I took DD to Legoland on Sat from 10-2pm, then had a late lunch at the beach. She had a blast, even at the beach where I just wanted to take a nap if I could she was running around splashing in the waves and playing with the sand.

Today we went out with a meetup group so that was a first for me. We had a potluck picnic and DD had a good time pastel-painting and running around.

She was tough for me a few times this weekend where she wouldn't listen and when I raised my voice she'd start crying and then I'd feel horrible. She's also been acting scardy where she follows me around room to room. Even right now she wanted me to sleep next to her and when I told her I will later after I do a few things she started crying again...sigh.

On the way back from the picnic today she out of the blue asked me 'Daddy I miss mommy, do you miss mommy?' - ugh...'yes sweetie I do and I know you do too but you'll see her tomorrow and even though mommy and daddy don't live in the same house we still love you just as much'. These are the times when I feel angry towards STBX...she's oblivious to what DD's going through.

Goodnight guys...gotta go give DD a few more hugs before she falls asleep.