still separated, headed for D?

[newmama]

I think I really am detaching and breaking through the BS fog. You see, WH is just getting more and more selfish. I am in shock because it is NOT AT ALL like the man I married!! I remember he wanted to be the positive influence on OW but instead, she became the negative influence on him. If it weren't for the hundreds of other stories that I read about As, I would think the old WH was gone forever. But the truth is he is not here now!

He is selfish for not letting me have my space. He is selfish for doing things that make himself feel less guilty. He is selfish for texting me while he is on this trip without asking me- he TOLD me he was going to. I just didn't know how to respond earlier but now I realize he should have asked!! If he really cared about my feelings he would have respected my feelings!

I kind of get the sense that he is desperately trying to keep me connected to him. He can tell I am withdrawing. Well tough sh!t because until he ends things with OW and drops the D there is no way I am letting him back in my life. He is the neighbor who got me pregnant!(my pregnant DB friends know what I mean!)


So when his flight arrived at his destination, he texted me with "Made it in one piece! Little bumpy. Give S a kiss for me!"

Sigh. I was tempted to 1) not reply 2) say "I will." 3)say "too bad you made it in one piece."

But instead I said "Ok, thanks for telling me. I will kiss S for you." Damn damn damn! I should have just said "ok, I will!" I really didn't care if he let me know that he landed.argggh!

I talked to my best friend who told me that she thinks WH was selfish also by not running changes of plans by OW- that he might be closing in on himself, heading for self implosion. WONDERFUL!!! Because self implosion implies rock bottom which often is what it takes to wake up and realize what they are giving up!!!