Sadly- W and I have had communication. W invited me for a walk on the beach last night- she clearly was going out after- I did not ask where or w/ whom.
While walking- there was little or no R talk, but I could see that W was not really into the conversations- the sad part is we both know so much about one another, so conversation is pretty dismal.
I did enjoy myself w/ her...there was a lot of talk about her business, which is not going well, my financial issues, and her going to a wedding next month...she's very concerned about what people there will have to say- knowing the sitch.
W has determined that she is this new person now- her identity is established through her business- horses and all things horses.
I know there's more to it than that, I also know the only reason we are where we are is that W was so unhappy that she allowed OM1 to be a constraint on our R/M.
OM1, still works w/ her and it's funny- now they truly are "just friends"- I don't snoop anymore- but the last time I did was when W was w/ OM2-
There are huge differences in the frequency of calls to and from OM1 during that time.
W still lies to herself about this- the fact that OM1 was an impediment to our M's progress.
I know the truth, so it doesn't really matter.
Our time together was brief. I feel like the issue w/ W is that she takes on the personality of the person she is around- she has difficulty being consistent w/ emotions or "energy".
I don't know what this means, but it doesn't really phase me at this point.
Not much else going on- trying to figure out school and other job options (part time- I'm getting killed having all the bills alone).
