feel like giving up - pt 2

[luvless]

Hi guys,

I have my BFF around so that makes me feel better. I have a busy weekend coming up to keep me preoccupied. I hope it goes smoothly. I need a break from hearing about lawyers and xhusbands.

I hope everyone is having a peaceful friday.

[CityGirl]

HAVE AN AMAZING WEEKEND! I am so glad you have your BFF, laughter is a wonderful distraction!

Talk soon! LU!

[luvless]

CG - LUV that you are a good friend!

[LSG]

Luv,

Have a great weekend. You really do deserve it.

Keep the positive attitude for you and kids!

[luvless]

Thanks LSG.

Here we go. When he is out front waiting and I drive up and pass him by like I don't even know him. Wonderful how our life has turned out huh Mr. Luv? This is what you wanted. He came to pick up the kids for breakfast. I had to drop off friend at a function this morning...it figures he comes early. I tried to avoid running into him but he was here when I pulled into the driveway.

Older son came in after talking with him for a while and said mom do you know dad has a disease? some respiratory disease that he has coughing fits. Evidently he passed out from one of these and hit his head and has stitches. Personally, I think he fell when he was drunk but that's just me.

I thought there was something up with that cough it used to bother me I thought something was wrong but anyway - not my problem anymore I guess. I have a day to myself. I will be constructive and get ready for my trip tomorrow.

Last night I was in the pool and thinking about everything. Although I was having a good time I still felt this empty feeling. I hate that feeling more than anything. I guess I'm feeling it all by myself. I have to remind myself that he doesn't care so why should I?

Well people...I hope everyone has a nice Saturday.

Luv....Luv

[givingitmyall]

Luv,

Just focus on making yourself happy. Pool sounds nice.

Hang in there. You're handling it.

[luvless]

I'm so not handling it.

[givingitmyall]

So, love yourself enough to give yourself time to be able to. No one said this was going to be easy. Chin UP!

[LSG]

luv - I feel your pain so much today. It is darn hard, but I know you can handle it if anyone can. Look how far you have come already. Look at my sitch. I feel like I am still the same pathetic person that came here. You are not the same person you were when your sitch started. I have seen you grow so much. You are having a hard day. Shake it off because tomorrow will be a new day.

I know you can do it! Believe in yourself that you will be okay!!! I believe in you!

[luvless]

Thanks for that LSG - we all grow at a difference pace...you'll get there. I by no means, am where I want to be!

I'm on the way out - Vegas here we come. I'll peek in you guys but I am going on a hiatus with BFF and kids.

Luv you guys.