Need a Plan for My Marriage

[LSG]

DLS - You are so right.

I have felt that my M is ending so much today when I found information that she is preparing a summons I believe for mediation. I do not know what that means. Part of me loves her so much. I almost told her that I want our M and not D, but I stopped myself. I do not know if I should reverse course on the 180 at this point. I feel that everything is ending. I hate this feeling! It hurts so bad. I hope I am doing the right things.

I do not know what to do. I think I am doing the right thing, but then I have doubts. I do not know how to completely detach. I do want to save my marriage, but I don't think I can.