Well, another week has passed by and things are still status quo as they have been for what feels like forever. H still seemes to be reconnecting with the kids and even a little bit with the house again - LOL. With me, still more of the same. He continues to surprise me with doing things for me that are thoughtful and kind but yet doesn't seem to be trying to connect. I am trying to stay detached as much as I can and keep my expectations down but it is difficult.
It is hard not to be hurt by still being very much shut out of his life and still having him not want to share much with me about work, etc. He does a bit, but not much. I have grown so weary of it. I just wonder when this part of the MLC ends - the secrecy and the shutting out. I really don't suspect an OW at this point but could still be wrong.
I am spending a lot of time on my knees these days asking for answers (see above), etc. The only thing I feel is that I am supposed to keep on with this journey for now.
