screwing up big time and need help

[elvencat]

Today has been an odd day. We got an extra payment (backpay) on our DD's SSI we weren't expecting, so I got my tire fixed on my car this morning. When I got home, H asked if I'd like to go to a movie. I was surprised because I'd told him (during my unfortunate outburst last week) that he better not ask to spend time with me out of pity or a sense of guilt. I agreed and we went to the theater, but they were so busy H decided he couldn't handle the crowd. Now this has happened before, but usually that meant we'd just visit a couple of stores and go back home. Today, however, he asked if I'd like to eat lunch out instead. I said sure and we went to a sit-down restaurant. We had a decent time, but I think we both were a little too obvious in being careful about the convos we were having.

On the way home, he asked what kind of arrangement I'd made with his mom regarding rent on the house. I said "we've worked things out to not make it difficult on either of us. Don't worry about it." He got annoyed that I wouldn't asnwer his question, but I felt he didn't need to know right now because he doesn't have intentions of moving into the house with me. Let him wonder.

When we got home, he surfed on his computer and I surfed on mine, but we chatted back and forth at each other for a while. Every once in a while he'd slip in a comment about me moving into the other house and I'd kind of blow off the comments without really answering anything. I couldn't tell if he was fishing for info about when I'd be moving, or fishing for info on what I'd be doing once I moved.

So, this evening I'm heading over to the rental to do some more cleaning to get closer to my goal. H doesn't know I plan to be moved in by next Friday yet. I think I'll spring it on him the night before, but I'm not sure.