A very hard weekend for me. Monday is our 24th anniversary. I think the last we "celebrated" was our 20th....maybe 21. Our very best friends from high school....and beyond, have a daughter 1 year older than D16. She is graduating today. Now. H took D16 to the graduation (2.5 hrs away - in our hometown). I stayed with the other 2 kids, even though it was "his" weekend, because there was a possibility that S11 would be playing baseball this evening---but rained out. I wish I was there. I wish WE were there together.....where "we" started....when all was so simple. I still remember falling in love. I still remember how that felt.....and still have that in my heart.
I'm thankful to have the kids with me, otherwise would probably be in bed being emotional........trying to keep from dredging up all of the feelings of how unfair this all is and if only........and why?????
I read somewhere here that it is ok to continue to acknowledge anniversaries.....because without that day you wouldn't have all the good memories, and kids......I do believe that, but it is STILL very painful.
Me 45 M 25 yrs; T 31 yrs;bomb 8/15/06; moves out 7/18/08 D 18, D 14, S 12
