The Court of King Caractacus

[lees]

Just venting again! Maybe one day I will send something like this:

Dear WAW,

By the time this is done I will have spent five years of my time, effort and emotions with you in pursuit of what I perceived as our shared dreams of family, stability and happiness. I am very sorry that instead we seem to be left with nothing but memories clouded by hate, regret and sadness, and empty bank accounts. I nevertheless hope you are proud of what you have achieved during this time.

I married you in front of all our friends and family with true and honest intentions to be together forever, for better or worse whatever life might throw at us. I am not proud of my failings in our relationship. My defensiveness in arguments, my unwillingness to really listen to you when you were asking for help, and my inability to give you the support you needed during some very difficult times in our lives. I will live with the scars resulting from this for the rest of my life. I have addressed these problems to improve myself, in order that I might not make the same mistakes again. I am, however, proud of myself for standing by the vows I made throughout this time, even when no-one else, including yourself, had any hope. I will take the new improved me forwards into whatever the future holds with my head held high.

I no longer feel that we have any reason to be in contact, and I am not sure why you wish to persist in contacting me. You chose to live your life without me as your wife, and you also made any future friendship impossible when you showed me the utmost disrespect in deciding to sleep with OW, my friend and colleague. This required breaking your promises, deceit, and total lack of consideration of how your actions might impact on someone who you professed to care about deeply. It stabbed me to the core. You have hurt and shamed your family, my friends and myself with your behaviour. I suspect that you have also deeply wounded yourself. These are not the actions or characteristics of a person I would seek friendship with, let alone a marriage.

I have found happiness within myself and hope that one day you also might find this and live a healthy and fulfilling life.