10. Found Cupcake's inner strength (and there is more than I ever thought)
you still have two months of the year and you have achieved all of that one!
Sorry, I am not making light of your very justifiable down feelings. Just wanted to point to the silver lining of all this bad. I am sure it is not the way you'd have preferred to test your strength, but at least you got that with flying colors.
BTW, I do not think you lost your pride, dignity or self-confidence. You are actually testing their true meaning and strength. There is a difference between pride (= a reasonable and justifiable self-respect) and conceit (=excessive appreciation of one's own worth or virtue).
It is probably easier to lose oneself in a false sense of pride than to acknowledge the limits inherent to one's humanity.
Agree on the misterious bit. Unpredictable and reasonably inaccesible...
"You don't throw a whole life away just 'cause it's banged up a little"
Tom Smith in "Seabiscuit"
