Had an ok weekend. Because I made a comment a week or two ago regarding H's lack of having kids 1/2 time as he professed to be doing - he has made sure that he has them every other night. In a way I enjoy my time alone, but in other ways, it really irritates me that the three of them are over there in my "Dream House" and I am alone in the other house.....Saturday night was prime example, I got teary-eyed for a minute when they were leaving to go and he saw it (damn, I HATE for him to see me cry - I have noticed that when I do, he immediately "shuts down" and gets out). So after I spent a few minutes feeling sorry for myself, I decided to go shopping to Sam's Club. I rarely get to really just browse and look at all of the junk that nobody else in my family is interested in....so while in there they called on my cell phone looking for me to see if I wanted to go eat with them....told them no, thanks for calling, but I was out and about....so I did feel better about things...
Sunday, more of the same....H called sunday night and was a bit grouchy - I asked him about it in my best DB way and he said "I am just tired - sorry"...so I tried my best to attribute it to "itchy butt syndrome...."
Heading home tonight to do my flylady chores - kids gone again tonight...
Just wanted to say that I had bad PMA day and would really liked to have called H and let him know everything I need now, but then I had a chance to read some posts here and was brought back down to earth and realize that "it wouldn't bring me closer to my goal...." ...so back to DB it is...
Have I mentioned that my number one goal is to go on a date with H? I think he in a round about way asked me on Friday night, said something like "I want to go to a movie, but nobody to go with..you aren't available because you have to pick up D8"....
so still actually waiting for a real live date.
I think I need to appear like I am not waiting for one...ok, cupcake act as if, get a life, paint the living room, unpack rest of boxes, exercise - you know the drilll.....
