DD:
Your 2x4 is taken as intended. I deserve it.

I have been trying to be there for her. To be her friend. The 180 would be to drop the rope and cut off all ties. Hard to do when she is napping in our bed and hanging out at our house instead of at her apt. She freely admits she is not thinking clearly. I think the idea of D gives her something to focus on, a goal to attain. How sad.

I leave week after next for 3 weeks. Hope she uses that time to contemplate her situation, instead of spending time with OM. We shall see.

I am going to be much much less available between now and my departure, and will not contact her once I leave. However, we are going to a MC on Monday. She wants me to open up my thoughts and feelings.

I would love some insight on how to handle the MC.

If you think this message is filled with mixed and confused thoughts, welcome to my world.


H 51, W 46
no kids
T 22 years
M 17 years
ILBNILWY 2/10
1st D talk 6/10
partial recovery
W files D 5/11
long distance separation 8/11
moving forward on D 10/11
legal separation complete 1/2012