The countdown continues

[Awoken]

((((Gardener))))

You know, your support here means a lot to me. Thanks for all the encouraging words and for keeping an eye out for me. I'm sure you understand that three little words "There ya go." can do so much.

There was a chapter in "rational recovery" about the spouses of addicts that was really meaningful to me. One thing that comes to mind right now is that even though I'm still worried about W, it's really a relief to not feel responsibility for her anymore. I have no idea if she is drinking, or how much. I don't know what her mood is, whether she is manic or depressed, and I don't have to accommodate those things anymore. At first I didn't even recognize exactly what that big hole I was feeling/missing was. It will likely be good for her too, to rely only on herself for a while.