FTR...IMO....I think you held up well in your first week. I pretty much did everything that you were not supposed to do - so please..cut yourself some slack.
I know you want to call him...sh*t i followed my W around the house like a puppy dog looking for some crumbs. I spent months looking for some "sign" that she was coming out of it. That maybe today she realized how much I love her. First off, the desire to call is normal dear...very normal. You experiencing shock right now. You are going to have bouts of loneliness, you will feel sad..you may see something that reminds of some of the positives that existed in your M. Now I am not trying to scare you but only point out that you are not loosing it...on the contrary - YOU ARE FACING IT!
I am not sure if you read the DR book but if you did I want to you re-read the section on "thought stopping". When you have those thoughts of him, those moments of missing him...thought stop...changeyour thoughts.
You are doing good Shelbel...really good.
God Bless, Eric
"The difficulties of Life are intended to make us BETTER,not bitter". "Fear is a prison, where you are the jailer. FREE YOURSELF!" "Life is usually all about how you handle Plan B." - Jack3Beans
