He's waffling and I'm tired

[Carlota]

I am Carlota, my friend DonnaF told me about this place. I can't be at peace, my husband is telling me that he wants out, but he says to give it a try and this is the third time and I am fearful, sad, upset, not knowing what to do. He worries about money, he does not spend time with me. I am lonely, I am pretty and I feel ugly, I feel not wanted by myself. I am in therapy and nothing is enough, I am depressed and not handling the fact that he does want out without giving his best shot, I am in shock by not seeing him try for us. Life is not a pancake, to make a marriage takes work. Work is part of the process. I am lonely because he has taking all his affection from me and that is my love language. I am drying like a prune and I am loosing my humor. He is far from perfect, and I still want this to work, I don't want to gave up on us. If he wants out, he needs to file, I don't want that in my conscience. I loved the way he used to be, I miss who he used to be.