Total disaster, guys.
H came.
Blew it.
Ranted at him.
So sick of him being 'nice', when all he is doing is placating me.
I cannot stand him.
He said he wants to live in Europe with someone else.
He told me I should just focus on having the baby.
He said he felt remorse, and I said no you just feel sorry for yourself. He said I feel sorry for you.
Told him to get out of my house and that I wouldn't tell him when he baby is being born.

I am so upset with myself.