I’m kind of sick of my thoughts and words at this point. They don’t make coherent sense.

Funny, my mind today drifted back to judging her for destroying our family; how dare she be distraught now, she’s brought it on herself. On all of us.

I’d like to be able to make a measured conclusion I guess. Hold her accountable without it coming from a place of anger; or be able to understand her without discounting my values regarding the family. Neither of those are going to happen, so I kind of want to stop thinking about it now.

I still can get into a place of shock that all this has happened.

Originally Posted By: DaddyLongShanks
You sound experienced and I know you'll be sending solutions to the rest of us to ensure you remain a positive role in your childrens life.

Thank you for saying that. I find myself wishing that I was more graceful through this. More mature; more able to have measured responses or actions. To have said or done “more right” things. To have had more wisdom.

Well, I’ve said this to other people; at this point I guess it’s a matter of being patient with myself, and letting tomorrow come. There’s nothing to “do”.