Except I'm thinking: why am I expected to just keep plugging along like everything is normal and fine?
If I were a widow, I would get a pass on all sorts of expectations of normal, happy behavior.
Being just a pathetic old LBS, I gotta keep my chin up, act like my pride is intact, and keep going through the days.
Bleh.
(((Aver)))) Thank you so much for your support after my epic-sized post on Mon! I got really sick Mon. night, & was knocked out of commission for a while. Anyway, re: the above quote, I have been thinking the same thing. It's rough.
I know for me, I haven't really taken any time off to grieve, or stop & just process everything. I was out 2 days this week, sick as a dog & just in bed all day. And that was only b/c I couldn't go to work. I think I fear it, the processing of it. I've been afraid to stop - take time & really feel the grief. I think it all caught up to me on Sun.
I look at Flowmom - her thread is called embracing change - and I think, that's it. that's what I have to do. Embrace change, b/c the old life is over. But 1st I have to grieve it before I can embrace it. I think.
We just get tired, sick of it all. It seems to never end! We are here to pick each other up, & support each other. And to yell for help when we need it. So that we all get through this long long journey together.
Aver, know I'm here for you. Getting support from friends/family in RL or here on the board is what gets us all through. You are helping me & I hope in some small way I'm helping you. I'll post more later - having comp. issues - what else is new! (((hugs)))
