No problem. Mr. Bond has thick skin. I know how badly you were hurting and look what happened. After my post, your thread was flooded with a number of caring individuals.
Sometimes you just need a catalyst to spark change.
In those times that you feel the worst, I do suggest you call your C. She'll be able to support you there when we can't.
M-43 W-40 2D - 9 and 5
Emotion, yet peace. Ignorance, yet knowledge. Passion, yet serenity. Chaos, yet harmony. Death, yet a new life.