We are supposed to go out tonight. I am an artist and I have paintings in a gallery and tonight is the opening.
We are trying MC, trying to be nice to each other and put all the "angry stuff" on the side, but I am so angry now that I am shaking... I am so sick of being humiliated. I am so sick of having my life/marriage issues drug out in front of people, I am sick of it! I deserve some privacy and dignity. I have read the disengage stuff, it makes sense. but I am also walking the fine line of living with him and attempting recovery...
He wrote an email telling me, amongst other things, how he had the COURAGE to file divorce papers. (Did I add that he did this behind my back? filed Thursday and Friday went to Germany for a week- and would not talk?) He threatened this in the past, (tell everone he is going to divorce me, except me or the kids) and he said that he would never, never do that again. He promised me to stop the P.A. backstabbing...
How the hell is this courageous? I am so mad I can not sit here. This is going to be hard to swallow. I don't even want to see his face. This is the piss off button of the YEAR for me.
