WAW still around, DBing starting to work

[gutwrenching]

Friday, heading into weekend, no idea what things are going to be like. Lots of dynamics. I think W is still trying, but barely. I could sense/see/feel her opening up last weekend and then slowly closing back up throughout the week. The physical attention/touching piece has also steadily decreased throughout the week to where the only thing she initiates is being held at night right before we go to sleep, normally falling asleep being held.

Weekends are often better for us; but that doesn't mean this weekend will be.

On Monday, she has surgery and will have to stay in bed most of the week and she will have to allow me to take care of her for a few days.

The big debate in my mind is the approach to take this weekend. Do I try to rekindle the flame given weekends are normally better without distraction of work, or do I go distant again...not sure.

Friday night is movie night with kids, saturday night another work/social obligation...

Rollercoaster still going strong, up and down...