We all have to figure this out on our own. The support we get helps, but we have to be the ones to take action. I am not trying to sound like Coach or Puppy or any of the vets, believe me. I was told for months what I needed to do. You have been told. Hell, we know deep down inside what we need to do. You just have to do it.
I wish I could tell you I had some sort of epiphany that woke me up. I wish I could tell you for sure that I won't backslide and make more mistakes. I guess I had just had enough. You realize that this is no way to live. Try as you might, you can't heal your W and, therefore, your family by yourself. Patience is one thing, getting $hit on constantly is another.
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I will be okay no matter what happens. I just have to believe that now. That is the hard part for me.
I understand. Everyone does. Puppy posted on my thread yesterday. He quoted me saying that I felt great about not worrying about what W thought anymore or something to that effect. Anyway, he only typed three words: Liberating, ain't it? Man, it is true. We spend so much time being scared of losing our families. When you finally let go and talk to your W like you would have years ago without worrying if she would leave, it feels the opposite of how you think it will. It feels liberating.
Again, I know how you feel. You have to do this on your own time. I will tell you as a newbie what the pros have been telling us from day one: stand up for yourself and your family! Don't be afraid of your W! Don't be afraid, period!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
