you don't know how much i appreciate the advice i get here. i'm very grateful for the advice and support i get.
the advice is backed up with knowledge. it's not trial and error. if i challenge the advice because i don't quite understand the logic, i know you guys/gal will walk me through the "why this works". nobody gets offended.
i am open to the advice and i will definitely do the work. i have nothing to lose.
i really need to work through my anger. you can see in my last few posts that the anger is still raw inside. and this prevents me from making non-emotional decisions. that's why i don't say hi when i see him. the decision to ignore is based on the raw emotion that is still eating away at me.
i know that forrest and coach are trying to make me let go of this anger. it's standing in my way from moving forward.
i wouldn't try so hard to win my h back if there was chronic infidelity or abuse. i agree with MWD that sometimes you have to let the m go. in my case, none of those things apply. i feel that there is still something there. and i want to build on that. it will be a long road to recovery but as long as he's sitting in the rocker next to me when we're 80, it'll be worth it.
