Goodgirl, I know you want to know if you put in the hard work, will you win back your H.

You should just know, no one here knows the answer to that.

But the majority would emphatically tell you, do it anyway. Do it for your peace of mind. Knowledge is SO POWERFUL. Getting to know your H, even now, more, is key to this.

Do the work and the next time you see your H, you will sense the difference. The better you are at working here on these things, the better the interaction will go.

And you are getting some really, really good advice here. I am really excited for you, because you are very open and receptive to it and they are willing to work closely with you.