Sleeper, I understand what you're saying, but I am glad that I tried these things. For one, they enabled me to learn and grow as a person. For another, I can honestly know that I did my best.
We're in the same place again. It wouldn't surprise me if we now get some expressions of remorse or regret, but, like you, I am not holding my breath.
M: 16 years Bomb 4/07 OW 20s long gone Divorced 11/09 I remarried New Guy Cooperative r w/X regarding D